heartaching.

these few days haven't been easy for me... i have to cover up 2 people's ass work and clean up rubbish work...

DSAL - 3 people in a team, i did all to cover their ass.SDT - 4 people in a team, all did their work, but come to diagrams, all rubbish, where i have to redo the whole thing by staying up the whole night till the next morning.NMA - i tot i can really trust him to do a simple report. and in the end, during the interview, he don't even know what he did. and ended up being screwed.DEUI - i myself need to cover my own ass.
after all these, there's still exams coming. i really feel like falling apart... seriously...
and i know its not right for me to say this... but i really miss being loved, being doted, being kissed... i really miss the feeling... everynow and then, when i leave school alone... i'll always end up going home alone... and that sucks... i can only tell russell, "everydaythis time, i'll pick her up after school... and she fills my day..."

melissa ; says:

but seriously. is it worth it

if i can sleep and wake up and forget everything... that would have save me from the day when the love ends... ha! i feel like a freak now... i dun know wad are you feeling now... but i hope you dun feel like wad i'm feeling now... becoz this sucks!! i still dun know why i'm grabbing over it... this sucks!!! the aching is killing me deadly!!

*no one can take the place of my NUMBER 1 BOY.3 Nov 2006

and i was childish and immature afterall.