enming is back!

well... decided to write my post for the day... how do i start? i've got lots of things to say! hmmm... today, went for a swim for L.K.K, Daniel, Bohan, Chee tong, yi chen, alfred, etc... ehx. was quite happy coz i've met new frenx again! heex.. well, they are quite fun to be with.. i went for a lunch first with daniel and L.K.K. then, we walk to the pool...

at the pool, we had a relay... hahaha... somehow 4 x 100 relay! hahaha...and my team won! hahaha... then, the blazing sun was extremely *2 thumbs-up!* shiok! hahaha... then we walked out of the pool to apply the tanning oil... hahaha... a bunch of hunks! hahaha... the funny part was that we actually trying to seduce the ladies there by rubbing our chest with the oil! daniel was one of the best! hahaha... lol... the more he rubbed, he's spiritually HIGH! hahaa... then, we walk to the baby pool... the one with a mushroom foundtain... hahaha... we had water rugby! hahaha... 10 people in the pool knocking down one another... pulling of trunks and grasping of breadth... hhahaha... then till 1 plus, somehow, i left... coz i need to be back home by 1.30... yeahx? it was fun and tiring... i am now very tan... all thanks to the tanning oil - l.k.k... hahaha...

perhaps, i know i had a lot of fun! but, at the same time, i found out something was missing... it was YOU... i know i leftv without really accompanying you but, i left is not becoz i was just thinking of playing... perhaps, i didn't really know how to face you... when i was back... i went to take a nap... then, i realise that i made mistakes all the time.... and i tried to make it up for it... but, i can't? i'm so in a mess! well, i was disappointed for the moment.. coz i tot u could tell me... why can people say out things tat happened in the wrong way? why they have to keep it intside their heart>? i dun understand? finex... i'm really suffering from apathy for now... nvm... i just hope that i'm not being a fool... well, i think i am by now... nvm... i'm not critising you or wad... i have no offence against you. i'm just very worried and i dun want to be treated like someone that really can't do anything at all.. nvm... nobody understands...

my ability:
making people annoyed...
making people upset...
making a fool out of myself...
is that all i can do?

enming walks out of the room carrying heavy steps of depression...

[i _ _ _ _ _ you...] to you..

i'll still remember that [Patience - even the world's toughest rock can lose its shape under the constant of running water...] do u still remember? if u do, please help me...