smart me:) *grins
For so long that i've never blogg... there's a reason behind it... for all these days, i tell myself why am i keep holding on to the relationship also... why do i keep telling myself i still love her? well, i know my feelings are there... but now, i would like to say is that once a break up, its straight and clear that i dun hang around the mid air and routering around the same place... this make the people around me feel so irritated by me, becoz i keep telling them the same thing over and over again about me and her...
i should move on... i find that all these while, i tot my friends would think that i'm some idiot keep thinking about her... and keep pestering my frens telling them how much i still love her... but still have to let go... and making them feel so irritated by me becoz i didn't take the initiative to do something about it but keep standing on the same spot, not moving on... just hanging around the mid air waiting for nothing...
so i decided to let things pass from now on... its not the same as before... well, how would you feel to be wronged??? how would u do if you're wronged by someone? would u tell him or her the truth? would u at least explain? To me... i feel that i dun need any explanation from you anymore... when i look at pictures, as people do say pictures are deceiving... but pictures are often misleading... wad i've seen for so long... i notice that i'm forgotten... and being taken for granted from that day onwards... wad i felt was hurt... and wad i heard was "I DUN KNOW, BUT MAYBE...", from there, i hear things that broke something inside again...
pissed* anger* frustrated* upset* disappointed* foolish* hahas... i'm such a noble guy... ya? well, i'm just trying to be noble here... wad do u see in me? trying to be a hero? a personality with a fat ego in me? hahas... okay.. maybe to some of you i am;) fine... i shall take the blame then... becoz i feel that too when i heard my fren say about her boyfren... i was thinking am i like him? hahas...
but oh well, for wad i know now is that i dun want to do anything... i prefer to close this <3 inside somewhere, not gonna tell the person wad the misunderstanding would be... and what the pictures tells about... if someone would ask me one day... i would explain... but i guess that won't happen... hahas... *thinkingtoomuch* yea:)
~* life is like a ball,
it goes round and round and round. *~
these period might be tough as some dearest people around me still cheer me up:) and enming shall not be naggy about the past le:) well, i know i still do... like that person... but i won't want her to like me... becoz she can't be back that person i once loved... ya? and i dun allow her to:s yups:)
i maybe an emo-boy, but i can control de;) heez:) so no worries... vivien mei mei! i think u still very concern of me hor:) hahas.. thank you anyway:) your ming ming kor kor is not a superman;) but he'll still want to be successful too:) i just want to pray for her each and everyday lohs... i pray for myself to be better in anyway... to be better in studies is something i'm looking forward to;)
and yups:) after all these days, weeks, months, i found out i was just invisible... i tot everything was just fine... and a little misunderstanding which made everything fell apart so heavily... i hate it... i regret it... but i'll still have to accept it...
*walking away quietly...
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