I will remember you AlwayZ! and always...

i've broken up with her...


That does not mean that i'm happy about it!

I cherish u like no one else would!

remember that day u send me an sms about our breaking up...

the breAking up wasn't actually a message of breaking up... it was a message about not being together...

I've tried asking for a girl for 3 times... and eventually! i failed... the first time was actually sec 3! when she told me that she wasn't ready for a relation... and during that time, we weren't very close... and didn't knew each other that well? thats why she rejected me... NVM...

8 Months later,
I propose to her again! and this time, i tot i'm sure to win her over... but u know wad? I failed again...
its finex to fall and climb up again... i felt hopeless after that... feeling sad about it... the reason she rejected me is because she said it wasn't the perfect time to be together and she was ditched by another guy... NVM...

about 6 moths later,
I PROPose to her AGAIN! nevertheless, she rejected my offer... it was rather confused for me... she told me that during that period of time, its O level... and O level would be much important to her... as her parents would want her to go to the JC... and she somehow gave me the idea that after her Os, i can win her over finally! BUT...

BUT... BUT... BUT....

a month or 2 later,
A message received... it was her... it was her message! of asking me to forget her and giving all those sorry words to me... at first, i wasn't thinking much at all... and i replied the message with senseless emotions! i just said NVM! i can't imagine that i've said that out! after a while, i gave her a message again... asking her why is she doing this? is it becoz of her family? her brother? her parents? or any diesases she had affected... but, she said no? she said to me that its no one's fault... she said, its her... herself... she said that i can find someone better than me... and she told me that she doesn't feel like having a bf... thats when She REJECTED ME COMPLETELY! i wasn't sure why she rejected me... she is it becoz of my attitude? or is it becoz that i'm too suck? but, i think that i'm really too stupid... i didn't even know wad i've done that made her do this to me... i'm sad... i'm crying quietly in my heart... she said that she had thought about it again and again... of being with me would be a better choice or not? yet, she chose to be not... i'm rather disappointed... she has her bright future, and maybe i'm suck on my own...


for later on...
after her Os...
after Os results taken...
we still remain silence as friends after all...
it was pretty sad... as a guy have fell for this girl ever since sec 2...
and the days where this guy went up to a girl to take her phone no. the first time in his life!
and have chatted everytime... and she was being chased by a guy be4!

The another guy chased her be4! and the same question the guy has asked like i do... but, eventually, she agreed to go on a relation with him... the reason i've heard was that the another guy propose to her at the time she feels like having a bf... and that time, i was really really really unhappy about it... the another guy was my fren! a fren of mine! i wasn't assure of separating them... i thought i could... but, i couldn't... it was my heart that melts when i see her... when i talk to her... when i glimspe at her...

so, i let them go together...
and the guy left her that time being as he was going overseas to study... and they broke up... it was sad for her... and sad for me... coz she was somehow ditched! i hate that guy! i hate him! but, i later forgive him... as she said the another guy wasn't at fault... that was when i ask her the 2nd time...


it was an experience for me... and i'm glad to hear that she still fine now! we still chat and joke around... i hope i can really have a chance to tell you that i love you! and i hope that i have a chance to be your originated boyfren! without any difficulties.. without any obstruction... hope that the rejection message that u gave a year ago was just a reason behind it...


i will wait... thats wad i told her...


I'LL WAIT... and wait for the time being...

maybe i have no more chance... thats why i wait... maybe its really a reality for me to face...

And i will have to face it one day... Living with no REGRETS...