i feel that its all my fault... and for everything that i do... i know that i will always be wrong... i dun know why... but i'll just admit that i'm wrong... i'm not asking for sympathy ok? i know that things really changed.. in fact the person of who i am has changed... has changed into someone that doesn't know what he's doing... and he knows how much pain he has done to someone he loves so much and at the same time cannot do anything to make things better... the more he keep trying, the most she gets hurt... well, after reading her blog, i felt that why am i in this world to hurt her... why am i keep wanting to do something for her but i just can't... well, nobody knows wads the reason behind it... and i expect no one to know or understand... please everyone, pray for kymberly that she'll recover fast and firmly...

"you've lost half of me" - and i told her i'll try to get her back on track... i didn't manage to tell her that and when u get back on track, then its time, i'll move away from that track... and be someone whom u want to be with... a special person... i felt pain leaving, and i kept dragging and dragging... and after so many days that i've never seen her, i felt that its really true.. i really feel the need of her... but if i say that, i'll only end up hurting her again... each and everytime i try to make her stay, i really feel bad... its like making her feel more and more pain... and i dun want to...

down the road that i've image from now... i can say that things will be tough for me and her... and i'm sure i will end up making her more upset... more hurt will then be created. and i dun want to... sacrificise must be made... and i know... perhaps too much sacrifisice has been made in the past... and its really going down... well, doesn't mean that is only me who made those sacrifice, she also played her part well too... and its just me whose wrong... and i kept doing things in a wrong way... knowing that there're all kinds of problems and difficulties, i still manage to stay strong in wad i believe... but after so long, i felt that wad i accept was a family of happiness... i found love and at the same time, i found happiness within her family... and i really love her family members... becoz i've never felt so warm of a family be4... and its her who also changed the person of who i am... i know that wad i'm doing now is not right... but when she said "i'll pic them up pieces by pieces of her" - my tears roll... and i really feel that i can't go on hurting her again and again... i'll go tell her later...
aja aja fighting, kymberly!