i'll not turn my back against you... and i'm just turning against my family's... although its hard to go through all these... but i know i'll be fine becoz i know u tried to cheer me up:) becoz of Him as well...
i'm no longer the guy you use to know and use to love... it hurts me when i say all these... the guy that u use to love is no longer able to love you and protect you like wad he use to do before... in his heart, he loves kymberly... but outside of him, he can show nothing...
wad he wants is to calm the huge wave down to still waters now... he changes every now and then becoz of how the way he's being treated... u know enming is always strong when he wakes up the next morning or goes for some exercising.. .
wad i want you to do is to remain calm and do wad u feel like doing now:) do not grief for me... i just want you to be free over nothing... u wanted to wait for me:) as i've said, u can:) for awhile more? do not wait for a person too long, becoz it's gonna be your own loss... doesn't mean that i'll look for other girls or wad... but after so much that has happened, i feel so tired... so exhausted after so many battles... so many quarrels... i just dreamt of lying on your shoulders... but i can't... becoz you're no longer mine... and i dun want to hurt you...
i dun want you to cry... ok? baby girl? i want you to stay strong for me? will you? stay strong for me:) dun cry for me:) give me a smile when bad times occurs... i feel way better:) i'm sorry about today that i send sms so slow... becoz i was sick actually :S and i laid down on the bed for almost the whole day... i didn't tell anyone in my family except my dog:) hahahas:) he kept looking at me:) so cute;) and when i lie on the bed, i dreamt of how you take care of me:) u know? u made crysantheman tea for me:) u wet your hands and put on my forehead:) and u slept beside me to make me feel better:) and when i woke up, i thank God to give me such dream:)
well, u feel much better now? (: just remember when u read my blog, dun read on the outside, read about the inside... i'm not focusing on who is the cause of wad happen... but i'm focusing on my family... you're never the cause of this incident... and i've never think that its your fault... becoz it was my own decision after all:) so please dun take the blame on yourself... ok;) i'm feeling better now after a whole day's rest on the bed... i'm sorry to reply so slow today... and i'm sure ur tears bud is dry by now... becoz u cry again rite? well, cheer up:) enming is still smiling and so do u!!! cheer up ok;)
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